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Sunday, July 31, 2011


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Friday, July 29, 2011

.Wow it's been almost a week since I've blogged. Since I've been on my PC really. Which is weird cause I am oh so reliant on technology. Speaking of technology, I'm pretty sure I mentioned on this blog that the on button on my phone is jammed and I can't press it. So in an attempt to fix it, I got a screw driver adn tried to  go arond the edge trying to.. I don't even know what I was trying to accomplish really. Lift it up maybe? Point is, It did lift up. A bit too much. And now I don't have an on button at all D: 
Jap people came today! And Lisa and I tagged along with Sharon to Clarke House Lawn at lunch to talk to them but they weren't there. Turns out they were in the dairy. It was kind of awkward talking to them cause the things you learn in jap, like the questions and stuff are pretty.. weird questions. A bit creepy. I mean, when you're getting to know someone, you don't ask "Where do you live? What do you do on the weekend? How do you get there? How many pets do you have?" so I pretty much just asked "What's your name? How old are you? Do you like Australia?" yknow.. generic things. And I was rather proud of myself cause I actually remembered how to say all that :D Stop that sarcastic applause! It's been two and a half years since I did Jap and that's an achievement for me okay? :( Let me have my glory! As we were walking, Lisa was being, well... Lisa. Think of your own adjective that's synonymous with Lisa :) But yeah, she, being the person she is, screamed out as we were walking.. LIKE LITERALLY SCREAMED "THAT GUY'S CUTE BUT HE'S FAT! IM SO DEVASTATED!" Fair enough, they probably didn't understand her :P Not the students anyway... But they had an English teacher with them...ehe . Nice job Lisa :P
We sat on clarke house lawn until the end of lunch and I'd forgotten who I'd already asked for name and age.. :S So I just started talking to some guy about sports and basketball :P teehee . And omgsh, one of the guys I was talking to, I was trying to remember all the jap I could and Sharon was like "He's the best at English" And in my head I was just like... really? Then why the hell am I making my life hard by speaking japanese? D:
So yeah, that's my life... I forgot about HCF and I feel so guilty and it was Mr Trotter too ! and omgsh I love when Mr Trotter talks at HCF cause he's really good! :( gbrwufnergnerjkgertsh Whatever, okay. Another vlog/cover for you guys who actually bother to watch it :P

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Saturday, July 23, 2011

Thought I'd try something new that took less effort than typing out unstructured paragraphs of nonsense. Instead you have minutes of unstructured words to listen to. One thing I didn't mention in the video. If in doubt ask Colin, cause as I've learned, Colin is always right :P

woaaaaah. Just watched the video and I have the voice of a man... Not that that was an unknwon fact. But it's a tad strange... Also, I made two videos today but I won't pester you guys with multiple videos on the one post. Just hunt it down if you're THAT interested :P

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Thursday, July 21, 2011

I have decided to do another blog like the one I did not too long ago where I don't edit the things I write and just write continuously without stopping. Everything and anything that comes to mind. No skimming over thoughts. Just plain, raw thoughts. Yes, it is a tad dangerous, considering the places my mind visits. But hey, I have nothing else to blog cause my life is boring. Of course, one of the things that come with a mind-wandering blog is that there is absolutely no structure to the post. Just a collection of thoughts and mental ramblings. Kinda like my gothic story according to Miss Skola. Some things should be left censored. However, this is a raw thoughts post so no censoring. I promise :) I am a sucker for winks. That is probably not the first time I've revealed that to the general public but it popped into my head. A montage of people winking. Not really. More like the same person winking. But no one who reads my blog would know who that person is. Or you might. But yes, that image reminded me that I like winks :) Depending on the type of wink. Of course, if it's sleazy and creepy then run for your life. But when it's cute and.. cheeky, I find it incredibly adorable. I don't know when/how I'm going to finish this post. When it begins to get boring I guess? Which was probably what..? 4 lines ago. maybe earlier. Ehe . I hate when things don't go the way you want them to do but I guess that's all part of the growing up process. Realising that there are things beyond your control and that sometimes you need to accept you don't know people well enough to plan such things. It's just... disappointing. Some things are best left alone. A pleasant note to end it all. But no. People, well people like me, get greedy. And want more. Try to get more but then end up ruining what could have been a pleasant encounter that ended on a good note. See, this is what happens when I write raw thoughts. I don't make sense and everyone is probably staring at the screen trying to read between the lines, giving names or faces to what they assume I am censoring. But like I said, no censoring. This is actually the form my thoughts take. Disjointed ideas that only make sense to me cause I know what they refer to. There is no need for me to explain context to myself (woo english!) so it's just a lot of theys/shes/hes with no actual names. That must be incredibly frustrating to read. I apologise. But hey, if you're still reading up to here, my mind must be interesting enough right? :P I can't stop thinking about recurring images. Mainly from work and it's really frustrating cause they have no relevance. It's like.. oh popcorn yay. Oh look, snow mug cool. Oh red seats of Acer Arena... greaaat. And then my mind delves into a detailed exploration of that particular time of my life and it's sad cause the friendships are so brief. I don't like the concept of temporary friends. But they exist. Which sucks. But at the same time, there's something...enchanting about it. Be whoever. Do whatever (obviously within reason:P) and not worry about flawed long term perceptions because you won't see them again! Until next year if they decide to work again by which time they'll probably forget about it all because honestly, they have better things to occupy their mind with. But I guess that's the case with many seemingly long term friendships. Childhood friendships, primary school and dare I say High School? Maybe they're just as temporary...The only concern with that is ending on a good note cause the worst thing is looking back at it all and think 'Damn, I could have been better. Done more. Made more effort. Even if it was a temporary friendship, why waste it by being creepy/mean/rude/someothernegativeadjective?" Know what I mean? So I guess I don't want to be looking back and asking myself (regretfully) is this the way it ends?


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Sunday, July 17, 2011

So very sore. Not really. For some reason. After an 11 hour day yesterday, I got home and just slept for ages. Well not really ages cause I got home at 10 and woke up at 6.30 but more sleep than I've had for the past few days. Working at Disney on ice is pretty intense. Well, as intense as selling popcorn can be :P The pole just gets really heavy but it's fun enough :) Yeah, so... I woke up this morning and I could not move. I was so sore! Three shows yesterday and gnwrigneoget it hurt :P When I got to work this morning at like.. 9, I was ready o fall asleep. Luckily, we didn't really need to do much in the first hour or so but towards the end of the day and now, I have like a crapload of energy and I don't know where it came from. Probably from all the socialising *hair flick* I'm kidding. I'm an introvert :( But yeah, I talked to a fair few people today and making friends always gives me a buzz :) So yeah.. pretty cool. Pity I only have one day left cause it would be nice to talk to them more and I think one of them isn't even going tomorrow? Well he said today was his last day but as far as I knew, tomorrow was when EVERYONE got paid after they counted up all the money and stuff.. so I dno .
But enough about me and my job, ... actually seriously have nothing else to say cause for the past 4 or so days that's all my life has been :P I don't feel like school is in two days. But I don't feel like it's the holidays either. I'm in... time limbo? LOL I make sense 8) I'm going to stop writing now...


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Thursday, July 14, 2011

So when I first signed into blogger, I was in the  mood to rant but after reading other peole's blogs, I am all good now (y) oh the things other peoples lives do to me... not creepy at all. 
So anyway.... Today is my only day off for the duration of my 6 day job and it was a freaking waste. I was hoping I'd be able to go to Luke's but NO! My parents are like.. I don't even know what they said. THey didn't give me a direct answer which is more irritating than a straight out no. ANYWAY, yeah so I am currently working at Disney on Ice selling popcorn and it is tiring carrying around a giant pole of popcorn up and down stairs of acer arena and stuff. It's also frustrating when you are given $50 of change and the first person that buys off you pays with a fifty. Then a second person comes with a fifty. I hate turning people down! I feel so bad! During the intermission, we had to sell again and on my way out, a couple were like "DO YOU HAVE CHANGE FOR $100?" And in my head I was like... seriously? You're going to pay for $15 popcorn with a $100 bill? They're lucky that Luis gave me change earlier and that they were my last sale. And they were British, so I forgave them :D 
Also, have not done any work at all these holidays except a few parts of my art drawing. Haven't finished it though. You can barely see any progress which sucks but gnriferjsgvkdfngt I DONT WANNA! I haven't started bio, I cbb doing English  and no way am I even going to attempt catching up on maths. So yeah, in conclusion, people with big notes suck, I wasted my final day off and I have yet to find an opening where I can watch Harry Potter D:

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Sunday, July 10, 2011

'Whether you come back by page or by the big

screen, Hogwarts will always be there to welcome

you home'

-J.K Rowling

Earlier today, my sister was on tumblr and she was like "Some people are getting a bit too emotional over Harry Potter ending". WELL EXCUSE ME FOR BEING SAD ABOUT MY CHILD HOOD ENDING! Yeah, I just stared her down. I was actually thinking about writing a reminiscent post about Harry Potter but Holly beat me to it :P In a few days, the very last movie will be out and it sucks that I won't be able to watch it cause I have work. But everything that's been said about it being the end of an era but the story lives on etcetc it's true. I probably don't have much to add to it and I could write for ages about Harry Potter and how much I love it but that would either bore you or become awfully repetitive. 
I think I speak for many when I say that after the final movie, it's like.. what now? There's no more of the series to wait for. And while Pottermore sounds promising, I don't think it could replace the books. Oh my gosh I am getting mushy over a book. Yeah, that's how much I like the Harry Potter series. Got a problem? >.> I was always into fantasy and magic and stuff so when Harry Potter came it was like... phwoar mind blown :P Watching the Harry Potter movies with my family became a tradition and, after the first one, my sister and I would walk around cursing each other. Eventually, the movies became a sister thing until it dwindled down to just me and our grade because my sister flew away and my other sister isn't as into it anymore.
Point is, maybe my sister's right and I am getting too emotional over a book and I'm being silly by dedicating a blog post to it but honestly, the Harry Potter series has meant, means and will mean so much to so many people that I'm beginning to think it's more than just a book. I mean come on, it has 11 year old kids sitting by their window waiting for an owl with an envelope tied to its leg sealed with the Hogwarts Crest. 
Maybe it's an overstatement when I say many of us grew up with Harry and from the age of 7 to now, many of us have followed the story, witnessing it mature as we developed minds and opinions of our own.
Maybe I'm overreacting to the release of the final movie seeing as the final book was published long ago. But this movie officially marks the end of the Harry Potter era (so to speak...).
Maybe I'm just talking the series up when I say it's something that will never be forgotten. But really, Daniel Radcliffe had it right when he said the stories we love never really leave us. Joanne Kathleen Rowling has created something so spectacularly wonderful, it's left millions of people speechless and waiting for the bittersweet moment that comes with the final credits of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2.


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Friday, July 8, 2011

  • Went to Avi's house yesterday since I couldn't go the day before
  • Avi had just woken up when I got there apparently :P
  • Ate all of his food and mothered Nick cause he was busy playing COD to feed himself
  • Played COD. Yeah I'm pro (H) Loljk I suck D: 
  • Tried to convince Mariel to come over. Failed
  • Watched Nick play COD until we decided to play brawl cause Avi was taking ages to get off the phone and shower.
  • Went to the shops to eat and the automatic doors stopped working LOL 
  • Got back to Avi's at 4ish. Avi and Nick were close to asleep so they made em get a movie off Avi's computer and do everything
  • Picked Scream 4 cause Nick is funny when he watches scary movies :D
  • Nick hid under the blanket for half the time
  • My sister called at 5.30 to tell me she was outside the house and I didn't even find out who the Scream Killer person was! 
  • Avi walked me to the door and Nick freaked out. He was like "What? Guys! Can you switch off the dvd player first?!" -hides under blanket again- LMAO He's so cute :P
  • Got home and ate Chicken (Y) 
  • Oh and my sister somehow fixed my phone today. It turned on! Except my sim card wasn't in when she turned it on and when we changed the sim cards around, the on button got jammed again D: But I got it eventually.. yeah, cool story bro 8)


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Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Sorry for the 3 day delay in post... I got a life. No, I'm just sick. Well I was for a day. Actually, I've been sick since the last day of school but not sick sick until yesterday. And by sick sick I mean in bed sick but enough about that...
Grrrr My mum's out. My dad's out with her. My sister's out. And I am home with my grandma. But she'll be watching tv all night so I'm practically home alone. I'm so freaking lonely! And it's origin night! AND I'M GOING TO BE WATCHING THAT ALONE TOO! I was meant to be going Avi's house to watch origin but NO! Apparently the day after you're sick, no matter how fine you seem to be, YOU STILL NEED A FREAKING REST DAY! It's ridiculous and the thought of it makes my insides writhe with annoyance. BUT I WANNA GOOOOO! And oh my freaking gosh my phone won't shut the hell up. I hate my motorola. The memory is so freaking low and it can only hold like... 80ish messages before it says to delete messages. Which isn't too bad. But it juts keeps ringing and ringing to tell me the same message is being updated and I'm like I KNOW ITS BEING UPDATED STOP TELLING ME 48645645524 TIMES I DONT CARE! 
I am calm. Composed. Breathing. Clearly :) My parents went to my cousins house to give them tables... which is a bit weird but I'm hoping they don't stay there long cause I heard them say they wanted to go out again afterwards and that between my cousins house and their outing, they come back home so I can re-ask them if I can go to Avi's house. Time to come up with a game plan! Yes. Game plan. Cause that's what asking for permission has become.

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Sunday, July 3, 2011


Kon ! ^^
Yeah but I woke up feeling sick D:

What time is it ?

A lamp

Grilled. I like to pretend to be healthy loljk it just tastes better

How I can be at both ends of the maturity scale at the same time O_O

Little bit :$ But as Dumbledore said, It is not the dark we fear, it is the unknown ! (from memory so if it's a tad different, I apologise)

School tbh :P Like school after hours where you can just chill at the basketball courts for ages

People, food and God

sharks !

I'd like to say/think a bit of both but I think people think I'm selfish :/

if we're talking survival, a flint or a knife (woo bear grylls style!). If for fun, phone or geetar

Optus! :D


A vet


Lolita cause I fell asleep reading it.


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Saturday, July 2, 2011

First day of holidays and I spent a large part of it in bed or sitting or lazing around. I played wii for the first time in ages. Zeldaaaa ! :D But it glitched cause the spinny thing won't spin where it's meant to spin so I can't unlock the door. And if you're thinking "Maybe that's not what you're meant to be doing", I already thought that. So I tried for ages trying to find another way cause I thought I was wrong but there's seriously nothing else I can do. And the hole looks like all the other grooves the spinny thing usually fits into but it doesn't. This was months ago by the way. When I tried everything. Someone sent me a walk through and everything! I think it was Colin. Or Joseph. One of them, point is, the walk through said I was right XP SO THERE! So yeah, I gave up trying to look for something else and turned the wii on today, with the intention of starting all over again, only to realise that I already had a new slot. Convenient. I know it's the first one i made and that I abandoned it for a reason but I forgot what that reason was... Well if I find something wrong with it, I'll start a new one.
Why I'm acting like I have so much time on my hands, I have no idea. But I played for like.. two hours before I started feeling dizzy. Yeah, I get motion sickness from playing Zelda. That's kinda sad isn't it.. ENOUGH ABOUT ZELDA! I started reading Lolita last night/today and it's pretty good. If pretty good is  the kind of adjective you can associate with a book about a pedo looking at 'nymphets' and his attraction towards girls between the ages of 9 and 17 (I think). It's in first person so when he so much as sees a nymphet, you hear exactly what he's thinking. Which is pretty disturbing but it's interesting.
I have moments where I forget about my phone cause I'm doing something else. Like earlier today when I was playing wii, I got a text and I was thinking "yep I'll answer it in a sec" But the game gets too interesting and I completely forget about it. So yes, I should check that....


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1. If your doctor told you TODAY that you were pregnant, what would you say?
How the heck did that happen?

2. Do you trust all of your friends?
I trust them all but not to the same extent or with the same things

3. Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?
I really don't know. I probably would end up moving but after a whole lot of indecision, tears and weighing up :P

4. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?

5. Can you make a dollar in change right now?
No ? O_o

6. Which one of your friends do you think would make the best doctor?
Simon Banh or Chung. Or Vincent, they're all like.. walking first aid kits already anyway

7. Are you afraid of falling in love?
Not at all

8. Favorite kind of sandwich?
Umm whatever is in the sumo sandwich I always get :P I think it's ham, pesto, sundried tomato and cheese? But I swear there's more than that. OH! Rocket too I think ? I DONT KNOW

9. Is there someone who pops into your mind at random times?
Yeah :/

10. Whats your most favorite scar?
Favourite scar? That's an odd question.. I don't know. I don't think I have any scars... But don't think that's possible considering how much I fall over. I guess I just don't pay attention? :P

11. When was the last time you flew in a plane?
January 2010

12. What did the last text message you sent say?
What's wrong with that?

13. What features do you find most attractive in the preferred sex?
Dimples !

14. Fill in the blank. I love:

15. What is a goal you would like to accomplish in the near future?
Do well in school (Y)

16. If you were to wake up from being in a coma for an extended time who would you call?
GHOST BUSTERS! eah I'm lame.. Um my sister ?

17. How many kids do you want to have?

18. Would you make a good parent?
Apparently I'm already a parent... But whether that's a good or bad parent, who knows?

19. Where was your default picture taken?
Mariel's house

20. Whats your middle name?

21. Honestly, whats on your mind right now?
Work and Lolita.... My mind is so boring

22. If you could go back in time and change something, what would it be?
That's for me to know and you to never find out ;D

23. Who was or will be the maid of honor/ best man in your wedding?
My sister :D

24. What are you wearing right now?
Pjs and a singlet. Yes at 4:40 in the afternoon. Got a problem?

25. Righty or Lefty?

26. Best place to eat?
Anywhere asian ! :P

27. Favorite jeans?
Purple ^^

28. Favorite animal?
Dogs or arctic foxes

29. Favorite juice?
Mango !

30. Have you had the chicken pox?
I don't think so

31. Have you had a sore throat?
Yes. I have one now D:

32. Ever had a bar fight?
lol no :P

33. Who knows you the best?
Avi or Thai

34. Shoe size?
8 I think? :$

35. Do you wear contact lenses or glasses?

36. Ever been in a fight with your pet?
LOL I just imagined having a yelling match with my dog. But yeah I have, cause she wouldn't let me in the house... Oh wow I got owned by my dog. NOt htat she locked me in the house but she stood in front of the door and every time I tried to open it, she'd almost run in so I had to shut it again and I got annoyed and ignored her until she moved

37. Been to Mexico?

38. Did you buy something today?

39. Did you get sick today?
I'm getting sicker. Does that count ?

40. Do you miss someone today?
I always miss someone

41. Did you get in a fight with someone today?

42. When is the last time you had a massage?
Um, not sure. Not too long ago cause my school people pamper me ;D

43. Last person to lay in your bed?

44. Last person to see you cry?
Vincent O_O

45. Who made you cry?
Um ehe ^^"

46. What was the last TV show you watched?
Masterchef !

47. What are your plans for the weekend?
Parra and a crap load of wii :D

48. Who do you think will repost this?
No idea. I don't think many people read my blog tbh :P

49. Who was the last person you hung out with?
Avishay on the bus home yesterday :D

50. If your significant other asked you to marry them TODAY what would you say?
You're a bit early :P


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