Theoretical Chaos
Saturday, November 28, 2009

The last few days have been pretty good. I've started talking to people I didnt think I would ever have a reason to talk to before, went back to school and saw many missed people etc.

So I was reading Genevieve's blog earlier and I know what she means ! This year has gone sooo fast. It feels only yesterday our class was quiet..wait..since when was our class ever quiet? But you get the idea. I can't be bothered doingthe this year for me was thingy. but basically, I've gotten a lot closer to certain people, distanced from some, found my ULTIMATE bffl :P, and become more..confident I guess? Oh and my house went quieter cause my sister went to Singapore O_O This year was good I think :) Kinda sad that its ending but I think I NEED the new year so I can start fresh, Forget about all the mishaps and stupid dramas of this year and all the little problems of my life (cause somehow a new year is going to fix all this 8-) ). 2009, I'll miss you :') LOL Melodramatic much? :P

Moving on... Wetherill keeps coming up today! First Israaq was telling me about it, then I saw Anne mention that she went there on israaq's blog and THEN there is apparently something going on there later. Yes that's only three times...still a lot I think =/

Ashley Wu, I love you ^^ can I just say, what you said to me a few moments ago made my day :'D You're such a sweet person and I hope you have the best of lives ^^ LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU !

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4:00 PM ; smile'

Hey, you know, I love every moment I spend with you but he makes me happier than you do because he takes the time to be with me.

Go. Leave me and run off with your mistress. Shower her with gifts and tell her how special she is. Look into her eyes and tell her what I could never get you to say to me.

I lost you once before but this time it's permanent. Never again can I hold your hand, listen to your laugh, look into those gorgeous brown eyes or even tell you how much you mean to me. Your casket lies open I can see the face I fell in love with. Why couldn't I say this when I had the chance?


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Friday, November 27, 2009

I took the school's pro camera home today and I'm so scared im going to break it O_O I experimented with its functions and stuff and came up with :
I love the lighting on this photo :)

Last two photos were taken by my oh so talented sister :)

eh cant be bothered talking about anything else but Good luck for tomorrow Wesley :) I'll be cheering for best as I can considering im not going to be there, But yeah. I have complete faith in you :D


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Thursday, November 26, 2009

Hey you, we clicked. It was like that feeling you get on your first day of kindy. THere's that one person that you find you have so much to talk about and you have so many reasons to laugh when you're with them and not spending time with them is just out of the question. That's what it's like. Only \we're not 5 year olds on our first day of school. We're here. You and me. That's all that matters and I want to feel like it is that first day again. Honey, I need you to make me smile like that again. Cause its the first time in a while that I've felt so free. Yep. This is what you do to me. Pathetic though it may sound, I think I love you.

Maybe I should keep this to myslef wait until I know you better
I am trying not to tell you but I want to
im scared of what you'll say so im hiding what im feeling
but im tired of holding this inside my head
I've been spending all my time just thinking about you
I dont know what to do i think
im falling for you.

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Wednesday, November 25, 2009

I have a feeling that there will be heaps of blogs about camp. Although, something tells me I'm the first >=] But I don't want to make this a really long and boring post because that will be well...long and boring. I'll try to be slightly brief :P

Day 1:
Our activity group did raft building and beach games. Raft building was fun but SOMEONE (pernickety >.>) sprayed me with the shower and I was weeter than was necessary ==" meh. It was fun :P Then we had lunch and seriously, could they not be more creative with their symbols? A beach towel? Really? whatever. After lunch, we went to another activity and I had beach games. I think our group got it pretty good. We got all the beachy, water activities out of the way first. Beach games was fun. It was pretty much free item at the beach. But we werent allowed in the water. How sucky. So me, Lawrence and a few other people started digging a hole for no apparent reason and we eventually got it deep enough so that Lawrence could sit in it (with his feet in suspiciously brown water O_o) and we buried him >=] Fun times :P After dinner, we had a bit of free time then we went on a night walk which went all around the area. It was pretty nice. Like relaxing and whatever but the secenery woulkd have been sooo much prettier if it was a little lighter. Seriously, we went on through this foresty path thingy and it was so hard to see. and we eventually reached this rocky area and it was really pretty :) Kinda windy and it would have been better if it was like sunset but meh. But seriously. On rocky ground at night? Not dangerous at all 8-) Bed time blahblahblahblah. NOthing really noteworthy. That's a lie. But what happens in the cabin stays in the cabin .

Day 2:
It was sprinkling for a bit. Breakfast, then first activity which was the rock climbing. Avlin, Heidi, Vronca, Kerr, Anh, Carmen tanked their way up to the top. A few others made it up there after a while. I tried twice. Got half way twice. SO if you put both my climbs together, then I can kinda say I made it all the way right? :P Ok no that's cheating. But my arms are so sore from it >< lunch then high ropes and freaking hell it was scary ! Fun though :P Our instructor's name was Marco and at least three people chucked the "Marco Polo" joke. Poor guy :P Ok. I KNOW I did the giant swing at one point too but im not ure where about it fits in O_o but yeah that was probably the best activity. Or maybe Rock climbing was :P

yeah I cant be bothered finishing this. Something exciting happened that requires my full attention. I shall finish this post later :P

Thankyou Avlin for agreeing to be my temporary older brother during camp and being all nice and stuff when i was freaking out on the high ropes course :D

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Sunday, November 22, 2009


Three years ago, my 3 year old half-sister was taken from my father and I by her mother. I saw her for the first time in 3 long years today. Afraid she wouldn't remember me, i began to cry when she walked up to me. She put her arms around my neck to hug me and said "It's okay, Sissy. You're just as pretty as I remember." She GMH

Today, at my job of working with inflatable games, a little boy was stuck atop a slide, scared to go down. Before I had the chance to go up there, a young girl, maybe 3 or 4 years older than he, took him by the hand, and they slid down together. I asked her afterwards, and she didn't even know the boy. Her kindness GMH.

One Christmas season I worked at Wal-Mart in the jewelry department. A little boy about 10 yrs old came up to the register with a $40 jewelry box he said was for his mom. As I rang up the total, he pulled out 3 gift cards with his name on them. Instead of buying something for himself with his gift cards, he spent them on his mom! His thoughtfulness GMH!!

I am going through a nasty custody battle over my 19 month old son. I dropped my son off last week after my visitation and started crying because I would miss him so much. I gave him to his mother and he motioned to be put down. As she put him down he walked over to me, hugged my leg, gave me a kiss and said "Da Da no cry". My sons undying love GMH

I was wearing a short sleeved shirt for the first time in years. I was nervous that when my boyfriend saw my scars he wouldn't want to be with me anymore, instead he kissed my scars, and told me that if I ever felt bad enough to hurt myself again, that he would take the pain instead. He GMH

While at church, a woman told me that when she met her husband, she was diagnosed with a terminal brain tumor and she only had 6 months to live. Instead of leaving, he told her that he didn't care, that he'd marry her, and he was going to make her last days the best of her life. 2 years and a baby later, they're still together. His true love GMH

I saw a news report of a boy, Peter Zwart,who walks around his neighborhood every day selling brownies his mother makes and vegetables from his garden. He's raising money for his friend, Emily, who has been sick in the hospital with a rare disease. He is only 5 years old. Why does he do it? "Because I love her. She’s nice and she used to sit by me." His kindness GMH.

While at the store I noticed a man that was obviously mentally challenged. He wanted a free balloon that they give out to kids. They were out. A girl about 5 noticed him crying and walked up to him and said "here mister. you can have mine!" The look on his face was priceless. That girl GMH.


1:09 PM ; smile'

Stolen off Kat :)
1. First thing you wash in the shower?
My arm ? O_o This is a very stalker-like question..or maybe that's just me =/

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
Black :)

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
I don't remember the last person I kissed...

4. Do you plan outfits?
meh not really. SOmetimes...

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Hot D:

6. Whats the closest thing to you that’s red?
A stapler :D

7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
I was in the Philippines but it looked like school O_o (that's all I remember)

8. Did you meet anybody new today?
No im anti social and no one likes me :(

9. What are you craving right now?
erm...something cold

10. Do you floss?
eh..not really. Probably should :P

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?

12. Are you emotional?
no of course not ! 8-) ok thats a lie. Yes I am VERY emotional

13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
yes...just to see if I could:P

14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Lick, my teeth are sensitive ><

15. Do you like your hair?
eh its ok. I liked it when I had my side fringe :(

16. Do you like yourself?
erm..I dont LOVE myself but i dont hate myself either?

17. Would you go out to eat with George W.Bush?
That would be a tad boring now wouldnt it?

18. What are you listening to right now?
On The Way Down - Ryan Cabrera :D

20. Would you go sky diving?

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
I like any cheese :D Except blue cause thats ick

22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
Yeah. A lot but they're all filo so yeah....

23. Do you rent movies often?
I used to..

24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in?
nope Sparkly stuff is distracting O_O

25. How many countries have you visited?

26. Have you made a prank phone call?
hehe yeah :P

27. Ever been on a train?

28. Brown or white eggs?

29.Do you have a cell-phone?

30. Do you use chap stick?
Nope but i probably need to ?

31. Do you own a gun?
No. Guns are dangerous :O

32. Can you use chop sticks?
Yes I can

33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
My sister

34. Are you too forgiving?
I think I am?Maybe not I dno

35. Ever been in love?
Doubt it 8-)

36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow?
Going to camp (H) or staying home. Depends on which best friend you're talking about :P

37. Ever have cream puffs?
no..I feel deprived D:

38. Last time you cried?
ummm Reading my sisters birthday card a few days ago =/

39. What was the last question you asked?
Where are we going?

40. Favorite time of the year?
end of the year when everything's a bludge. Last week of school particularly :D

41. Do you have any tattoos?

42. Are you sarcastic?
I can be

43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
YESSS! I LOVE that movie !!

44. Ever walked into a wall?
haha...yeah 8-)

45. Favorite color?

46. Have you ever slapped someone?
Not seriously

47. Is your hair curly?

48. What was the last CD you bought?
Does this include birthday presents? Cause if it does, Kisschasy ALbum - Too b or not too b :)

49. Do looks matter?
not really

51. Is your phone bill sky high?
Im prepaid :D

52. Do you like your life right now?
eh cant complain

53. Do you sleep with the T.V. on?
Not on purpose

54. Can you handle the truth?
I dont know. I dont think so :S Depends what you're saying I guess =/

55. Do you have good vision?
Pretty good vision I think

56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
No . I try not to dislike a person :)

57. How often do you talk on the phone?
Not very, That's what msn is for :)

58. The last person you held hands with?
bahahaha ha ha ha....Let's not go there *shiftylook*

59. What are you wearing?
Shirt and shorts

60.What is your favorite animal?
Dog ^^

61. Where was your default picture taken?
Is this referring to msn dps? Cause if it is, Jewish museum park thingy :)

62. Can you hula hoop?
Psh no

63. Do you have a job?
No :(

64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
Vitamin Water :)

65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
lol no


11:38 AM ; smile'

Saturday, November 21, 2009

So I went livo today to buy more stuff for camp/my mum was bored and I bought some pretty cool stuff:P People in my cabin, I think we are going to go high :D Someone should bring war heads !!! I am sooo looking forward to camp now. Our cabing is the best :D It shall be aweome :DD
I packed today too. I was planning to pack tomorrow night but then a ise monkey (yes you are now a wise monkey) told me that that wouldn't be smart cause if I needed to buy soemthing, I'd be screwed. So yeah..packed today (Thats great Kyleen, What's your point?) And now im talking tomyself. That reminds me of HIstory Minor yesterday. We were in the computer room and Iw as typiong something upo and Iw as sitting really close to mr pollock when I realised that what I typed had no relevance. And I was talking to myself/the computer screen and im like "Ok, That's freaking great what the hell is your freaking point? Mother lover!" and Mr pollock was like "uh excuse me" ITS NOT LIKE I SWORE!! SHeesh woman . I swear he's out to get me >.> anywho...this is a really boring post. Ignore me...

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6:29 PM ; smile'

Friday, November 20, 2009

It is bloody hot. Last night, I was watching Amazing Race and Tiffany&co (oh how cool, it's like the brand:P) got out ! I didn't want them to go out. It's cool how they're poker players. They fascinated me so *leans forward wide-eyed* and the not asian one reminded me of Sandra Bullock. And I love Sandra Bullock (mainly cause she was with Hugh Grant in Two weeks notice. Anyway...

Is it weird:
  • To enjoy needles?
  • To occasionally feel the need to say thankyou to the train ticket machines when the ticket comes out?
  • That I'm only one of my eyes are sleepy O_x?
  • That I can't stop thinking about-
  • That my aircon is peeing? O_O (not literally)
  • to not be excited for camp yet?
  • That I like flat coke and sprite better than when they're fizzy?
  • That I like hot food better when its cold?
  • That I find almost everything cute?
  • That i'm able to distinguish between people's smells?
If it is, then I am one weird kid O_O

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6:47 PM ; smile'

Thursday, November 19, 2009

My sisters are the best :D I have one who is in Australia and sacrifices her complete happiness so that I can be satified (that's you Kathleeny) and another one who, despite the fact that she's in Singapore working her ass off, she still remembers what me and Kathleen are like. She sent a package over and it had our birthday presents in them. She called so she could hear our reaction..lets skip over this part...she got me a high waisted skirt, a singlet, a belt, a bracelet and a necklace from Forever will appear on facebook sooooon:D After all the excitement died down, she (Katrina) was like:
Katrina: What was your favourite part of the present?
Kyleen: The card :'D
Katrina: I knew you'd say that. You're so sentimental. Ask Chi (Kathleen's nickname). I bet she'll say the necklace
-asks Kathleen-
Kathleen: The necklace! No the Skirt! No the necklace. SKirt! etcetc for like five minutes
Katrina: Told you :P I still know you guys even though im far away...
END CALL ( well the important bits anyway)

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6:23 PM ; smile'

Maimai, I'm sorry but I can't do it. It isn't working and I HATE it. It doesn't benefit me in any way so I think I'm going to abolish Operation Mango ! Hope you'll understand my love :P

Today was pretty good. Bludged pretty much the whole day. Art was fun. Right now. we're just doing a mini BOW due at the end of the year. It isn't going towards anything so it's pretty much just a chill out project thingy/use up all resources so they can buy more for next year kinda thing. There's no theme to it or anything. It's whatever we want. Using whatever media we want. Should be fun :D I'm going to do photography. Kinda risky I know but miss seemed to like my idea. I'm going to take pictures of my model (Lisa ;P) and dress her up as barbie. Like a full on stylized barbie and it will represent how Barbie shapes the minds of young women. 6ish photos that will be like..Lisa-doll's life with child barbie being all innocent and then all the stages of life (teens, adults etc) after that, the barbie-wannabe (Lisa) will have two photos to it. One being Barbie-Lisa all made up and perfect and the other being "Behind the scenes" barbie where her life is messed up and w/e. I shall call it "The Unreachable Perfection and the Mistaken Beauty in Barbie" I'm lying. I'm not calling it that. But its sounds cool. Well it makes me feel smart :P

Oh and Mitchell, you are so deaf :L Mitchell, Ashley and I were talking about how sucky it would be if it rained during camp and it was like:
K: Apparently rain attracts bluebottles O_o
M: What?! Rain attracts boobies?
A: we know what goes on in YOUR mind
Yeah it was funny :P anywho...Camp is so soon !!! Honestly, I'm not that excited about it. Usually I'm looking forward to it like a week before but this time, it doesn't feel like its happening yet? I dno. It's weird. I think it's cause everything happened so late. I mean, I just handed my note in last week :S and it was almost not going to happen and stuff. Meh, I'll get into camp mood soon enough :)
Oh Vronca, everything is fine with me now ^^


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Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Happy Birthday Wendy !! man you are so loved ! Hope you had an awesome day (By the looks of it you did :P) and enjoy your guitar and Polaroid camera (So jealous of you>.>).
Anyway...Today was pretty good. Talked to people I haven't talked to for a while. One of which I still need to catch up with properly :) Sport was sooo fun today. We were finally able to play basketball :D YAYAY It was pretty fun cause it wasnt really...strict. ANd we just stopped and mixed teams and did whatever we wanted eventually. Twas good :) We should do that every week methinks :)
I got my Swine Flu vaccination today. Doesn't hurt much, just a little sore so HA Andy, you cant threaten me :P Turns out, I need to get three/four other vaccinations before I go Philippines so I don't come back all disease ridden:P Two of those "vaccinations" are meant to be taken orally. WHAT THE HELL?! I dont want to be taking malaria pills while im there! I'll forget >< and I dislike pills T_T ah well...I guess its better than getting really sick I suppose 8-)
To my BFFL: Keep smiling my love, everything should work out fine. You'll make the right decisions. I know you will. Just keep smiling as much as you can and don't let yourself get swallowed up by all this. Things dont have to be so bad ok? Love you :)
and to my dearest Lunch Buddy, you are such a good person. I hate seeing you upset cause someone as kind, gentle and sweet as you should never be unhappy. It just doesn't seem right =/ Hope you stay strong, I'm sure everything will turn out for the best :) Love you lots !!
Other: I miss you. A lot. I have no reason to, but I do. It's not like we've been far away from each other for a long time, more like, I haven't talked to you properly for a few days (maybe a week?) It sounds really whiney and whatever, but I made a really bad decision and I can't remember how I acted before I made it. I just hope things go back to the way they were...everyone says that =="

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Tuesday, November 17, 2009

1. What are three ways to win your heart?
Be funny but serious at the right time and knows me well :)

2. Do you like lightning?
Generally not but its a good scary night mood setter >=]

3. Have you ever cut someone else’s hair?
No. I don't trust myself with scissors :P

4. Last person you said ‘i hate you’ to?
Lisa ? When she was teasing me about...people >=(

5. Rain or sunshine?
Rain...Dance party in the rain baby !! (Yeah Mariel :D) I go high in the rain O_o

6. Last stupid thing you said to anyone?
erm..I don't remember O_o

7. Biggest turn off?
Max stalkerage. As in...asking you to hook up over the internet O_O Or smoking :P That's more realistic

8. Fave movie?
My Bestfriend's Wedding :')

9. Would you date someone who smokes?
I don't want to be judgemental/prejudiced but I think its really bad and would rather not :S

10. Would you date someone who was addicted to drugs?
Oh hell no

11. What’s your biggest turn on, physically?
Nice smile ^_^ wait no.. dimples :O or a nice smile with dimples? :)

12. Would you have sex w. someone you weren’t dating?
psh No. What do you take me for?!

13. Have you ever missed someone and regretted breaking up with them?

14. Have you ever dated someone more than once?

15. if you could go on ONE DATE with any celebrity, who would it be?
ummm Robi Domingo (H)

16. What’s your relationship status?
Single :D

17. Do you like cuddling?
To a certain degree :)

18. Do you hold grudges?
I can but I try not to ?

19. Do you regret dating anyone?
There's no date to regret

20. Hugger or kisser?

21. Missing someone?

22. Most important lesson you’ve learned from your exes?
I don't have an ex

23. Are you happier single or in a relationship?
erm...havent been in a relationship but im pretty happy being single. More eye candy without the restrictions (H)

24. How important are looks?
Not very

25. Would you rather date someone who was SUPER-HOT or someone who was nice?
Someone who's really nice of course :)

26.Do you stay friends w/ the people you’ve dated?
Can't really base this on anything but I'd want to ?

27. Would you fight over someone you wanted to be with?
erm..I havent and I dont think I would ? If they want the other person then go for gold honey :P

28. Do you kiss on the 1st date?
I wouldnt

29. If someone cheated on you, would you take them back if you really loved them?
I dno. Maybe....

30. Some random girl comes up to you and says “who the hell are you”? What do you say back?
erm..Kyleen....? O_o

31. Are you spoiled?
I'd like to think im not ? but some people say I am ><

32. Name three things you would not tolerate in a relationship?
Over the top Jealousy, TOO clingy and a whip =="

33. Which one of your friends do you think would make a good prostitute?
Lisa :P

34. Did you miss anyone today?
Yep. I miss her everyday =/

35. Last person to see you cry?
ahahaha Everyone the day after my birthday :P (anne, SUNDAY DOESNT COUNT :@)

36. Who/what made you cry?
Gau the man O_O Danica H and Amy's card :')

37. Are you a forgiving person?
Very..I think

38. Would you ever share a girl/boyfriend with your best friend?
lol that's weird :P Mel, im NOT after gau...dw :L

39. I’ve come to realize the last person who gave me a hug…
was someone I dont remember O_O

40. Are most of your friends guys or girls?
Its pretty even I think ?

41. How long does it take you to get ready to go out ?
umm 20mins maybe? an hour if I eat :P (I eat slowly)

42. how many people do you know of named Adam ?

43. Are any of your friends cheerleaders ?
Nope. ALthouhg, my mum apparently was O_o

44. What was the last thing you burnt?
My finger

45. What is your full name?
Kyleen Anne Lopez

46. What color is the bra you have on now ?
Skin colour :P

47. Do you straighten your hair every day?
Nope. I cant be bothered and I dont think its necessary

48. Do you worry about the size of your boobs?
LOL no !

49. Are you the typical girl who’s addicted to gossip?
I i? I dont think so...

50. What are your favorite girly magazines?
Girlfriend? Cause that's the only one I read? :S

51. Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy?
No! What a waste of a day :P

52. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
ahahaha Yeah. My Bestfriend's Wedding Man :P Love that movie ^^

53. Would you leave the house without makeup on? isnt really a necessity O_o

54. What’s the biggest turn on about guys?
Musical Talent ^^

55. Are you a girly-girl, tomboy, or in the middle?
Middddddle :D

56. Is pink truly the best color in the entire universe?
ew no

57. What’s the most expensive piece of clothing you own?
erm...probably the dress I bought for my sister's 21st ?

58. what color do you absolutely despise?

59. Have you ever stolen? a good girl (A)

60. Have you set your hair on fire?

61. Do you wear sweat pants?

62. Do you know anyone who has lost their virginity?
hehe.. yeeees

63. Have you ever ran into a door because you didn’t see it?
LOL Unfortunately, yes I have xD

64. Doesn’t 50 Cent suck?
Hell yeah

65. Do you like hugs and kisses(xoxo:))?
I don't mind

66. Do you act gangster?

67. Ever made a prank phone call?
ahha yeah and I failed miserably :P

68. Last kiss?
My mummy :)

69. What bill do you hate paying most?
I dont

70. Where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?
I havent

71. What did you want to be when you were growing up?
erm...a vet :)

72. Favorite NON sexual thing to do at night with a guy?
Talk or jam :D

73. When did you first start feeling older?
When people(not family) started having late night parties and I WAS ALLOWED :O

74. Favorite guilty pleasure?
umm...Carmen, my Scarlet woman ;) (What kind of pathetic answer is that?)

75. What famous person(s) would you like to have dinner with?
Let's be multicultural and say Jay Chou, Ikuta Toma and Robi Domingo :)

76. What famous person would you like to date?
Robi Domingo :P

78. What do you hate about your school?
The layout =="

79. Last person whose bed you laid in besides your own?
Mother dearest :)

80. Have you lost a friend recently?

81. Ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex?
I have before :P Twas fun. :)

82. Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
A lot :P :) >< ==" 83. Is it easier to forgive, or to forget?

84. Do you give out second chances too easily?
I think I do

85. Is your best friend pretty?
She's beautiful :)

86. Is it awkward when you run into your exes?
Nope since I DONT HAVE ONE

87. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
lol yeah. WHen it gets frantic on the way ot a party or smth :P

88. Can you make yourself cry?
Yep..can come in very useful hehe >=]

89. Is your life simple or complicated?
I'd say its simple ?

90. Are you easily confused?
Depends on the situation / topic although I think Johnny would say that I am all the time =/

92. Are you taller than 5′4″?
I think i AM 5'4" or maybe a little bit taller ?

93. Have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
erm nope. I'd like to think I make good choices?

94. Is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
It is ALL my natural hair colour

95. Does everything really happen for a reason?
I think it does :)


6:20 PM ; smile'

YAYAY THe basketball courts are finally useable !! I think they've been opne for a while but o one ever brought a ball? SO yeah. Today was the first day that I played basketball all term. Twas good :) ALthough, probably not a smart idea cause I was feeling sick. I ended up going back up a bit after the second half bell went and just sitting with Kaboir with a fruit pop :) Fruit pops are addictive O_O Hard to eat but good :P Also, I just realised today would be my last Alphabet Love day !! AMazing :P Feedback please? I thought of it on my own :) That's right, I'm asking you people to credit me if you steal it >=] Yes, I'm evil like that :P
Ag was pretty fun. Kind of a bludge and some guy was taking photos. Pedo much? O_o lol Mr Pollock set us another Research task. Lame ==" After reports come out, Im only caring about Histpory minor presentations. We only have two mulligan periods left so I might not have to do mine :D and im not doing history next year so I have officially stopped caring :D:D
oh and Mariel, Operation Mango (you know which one im tlaking about :P) is well underway >=]

Dear Z: Ok I take it back,,YESTERDAY was the last day of Alphabet love cause I cant think of anyone starting with Z :O so that's the end of that :)

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Sunday, November 15, 2009

TOday was so fun !!!! I can't be bothered giving a detailed account of what happened today. And the most entertaining thing that happened I've been told to never talk about again :P So that scraps that idea ...
I went livo and watched Time Traveller's Wife with a bunch of people. Yeah sorry for dogging city Carmen but my mum said it would be much easier to go livo and I'm too broke to go city!! Hope you had fun though! :)
hmm.. Anne you're not slack, you're just not nice :P LOL Nah I love you lots :L

I should have bought new earphones today and visited the optus store to see what's going on with my phone. They said five working days and it should get replaced. ITS BEEN FIVE AND THEY STILL HAVENT CALLED ME !!! Must find out what's happening there....Anyway, I am too lazy to blog (damn you nathan :P) so off I go.

Dear Y:
I love how easy you are to get along with. I havent talked to you in ages. NOt since basketball but I'd like to think that we got along pretty well :)


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Friday, November 13, 2009

Yesterday was cool. Caught up with a few people :) ANd the whole day was pretty much me D&Ming with Mel, Troy, George and Bhavna (for a bit) OH and Georgie, you know that thing you asked me in English? When I said 3, what I really meant 2 :P
At lunch, Mel was all up for a water fight so she poured water down Troy's response . ==" So yeah...that kinda failed. but in the end it was just me, her, koshi, mariel and Bhavna. It was cool. Cause no one else really wanted to except mel but then she got the wettest bahahaha KARMA BOY ! Yeah, then we had to go to the Holsworthy Barracks. It was sooo boring and hot and yick...Alan, you crack me up big time :L Oh and we went to look at the tanks and ALvin was like "I bet you wont see a tank" then I turned around point at Nicholas and say "I found one !!" was funny at the time 8-) Maybe not..ANYWAY MOVING ON!

TODAY, 9M dissected an eye. How fun. Usually, im not queasy when it comes to dissections and stuff. But the smell gets to me :S I was going to be sick whe nI opened the bag of was terrible >< If you ingore the smells, it was pretty cool though . Me and Mel asked Mr Trotter to help us make the first cut cause our scalpel was not doing its job and should therefore be fired. He ended up breaking a scalpel :L NIce Nice... We had swimming toda too and I really could not be bothered swimming so halfway through, people started getting out so me, being the follower I am, got out too. Me and Mel joined the people who werent swimming in a massive luvo session ^^ Good times :L Danica, you're so cute/sweet ^^ Love you :) (L) Oh and Kuya, sorry for using you as a punching bag earlier :P Nothing personal. Just needed to hit something (bad mood) and I think you're the only one tank and patient enough to put up with it :D

Dear X: I love how you always buy my chocolates ^^ You're really nice and you seem to always be ready to help me. THanks for that :)

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Thursday, November 12, 2009

You're not a lover,
you're just a distraction.

I love you but I chose him cause he gave me what you never could

Every kiss, every hug,
every time I hold his hand,
it's your lips, your arms, your hand.
And every time I tell him I love him,
it's you I see when I say it.

I want to know you better.

I'm giving up on you. I know I wont get rid of

the feeling but I'm going to act as if it isn't there.

Keep my mind open

See what comes my way

Say yes more.

Now all I need
you to do is


7:08 PM ; smile'

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

To the next best thing: I can never know what you think but I can assume . And I'm assuming that every time I ask you, you think that I only want to know so I can gossip about it. I know that I should probably be a lot more sensitive to you and what's going on and I promise I'll work on it. But seriously, I want you to know that when I ask, I don't ask to gossip, I genuinely want to know what's going on and if you're ok cause right now, you being happy means a lot to me. I've told you time and time again (maybe not lately) that you deserve to be happy cause you're such a gentleman. Now I'm not FORCING you to say anything but I just really wanted to clarify my intentions when I asked about "it". So yeah I understand that you might not want to talk but next time I ask (if there's a next time), please know that I am actually concerned for you and what might be going on your life.

Wow I haven't blogged since Saturday. My life is boring so let's NOT talk about that. Basically, everything's been a bludge. and one thing I find exceptionally weird is that for the last two nights, I've slept for 10 hours and I just has a nap and I have never felt so damn tired ==" I swear, people are so high maintenance. oh and I have a few msgs for people:
LISA: I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU SAID WHAT YOU DID >.> ah well..I'm relying on you to save my ass if things get weird boy !
Aldrich: nice nice ;)
Kuya: Sorry for punching you yesterday :P You're tank, you can take it right? :S
I think that's it...SPeaking of messaged for people, I am pretty behind with Alphabet Love. It's taking longer than expected cause my loverly sister (psh) keeps taking the computer before I have a chance to blog. But anyway :

Dear W:
I haven't talked to you in a while but you're cool. I love the way you are so happy and you just seem to spread happiness just by being there. I miss you :) LOL I can't believe I'm doing this but even though I've only had one sorta conversation with oyu, I think im crazy about you ;) LOL i'm kidding. You're really cute and tank..I like I like :) I love how your timing was so right...for want of a better phrase... =/ I love how happy, smiley and bubbly you are. You have the cutest dimple and smile and you're so easy to get along with. I don't talk to you much but you're one of the people that I want to get close to cause your personality is so...likeable and fascinatiing :P I probably osund like a stalker O_o

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Saturday, November 7, 2009

If you know me well, you'd know that I am strongly against change cause it makes me sad. But for some reason, today I am iin the mood for it. I got a haircut and usually I get the same style but shorter or with a few more layers or some minor unnoticeable change. BUt today, when the hairdresser asked hat I wanted I said "Make the fringe short, dont keep the length and do whatever you want" It's pretty interesting to see what they come up with. I now look like this:
I'm not actually sure if I like it or not but meh...what do you kids think? :)

Dear V:
I love how hyper you are. YOu're a lot of fun :) I love how easy it is to talk to you. I love our Deep and Meaningful conversations and how you're so ready to listen to me, even though most of hat I tell you has nothing to do with you. You're a really sweet loveable girl and im glad we got closer this year. We have our random bonding days and I gotta say, I REALLY like them :) I love having you as a friend, I hope we stay like this for a while :)

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Thursday, November 5, 2009

For those of you who lost the teapot checklist thingy I hall type it out for you :) (briefly with important points )

  • Using Pottery In Australia or Ceraimcs Art and Perception, sketch at least 3 interesting teapots. Label each with the artist's name, size of the work and the date of completion.
  • Find 3 images or objects by various Dada or Surrealist artists that challenge your ideas of reality, perception or functionalism of everyday objects or events (they cannot be artworks studied in class)
  • Draw at least 2 ideas for your teapot in your VAPD. They must: remove function, have strong conceptual meaning, challenge assumptions, evoke confused, dreamlike or surreal mood and use addition or subtraction to form construct meaning.
  • Consider Dali's use of Illusion or Magritte's interiors where unexpected or contradictory backgrounds such as sky and pebbles are included. Text music or foreign materials could also be considered. Choose and draw your chosen design in colour in your VAPD
From here its the actual construction of the teapot...which you all have done I presume ?Hope this helps :)


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PE was so fun today. We were in the pool but I forgot about that so I had no swimming things. I jumped in with my singlet and sport shorts anyway. Not a smart Idea...I got out a bit earlier so I could dry off properly but was so worth it :P
After school, I REALLY couldn't be bothered going by train and Mariel was like "Do you want to stay back and finish art?" to lisa because I've already finished my teapot, but I went anyway so I could just catch a bus (Cause that would be easier 8-)) and waws pretty good. Genevieve probably thinks I'm a crazy stalker now :L I didn't really do much i just repainted my Alice in Wonderland design for tomorrow...didn't finish it. I'll get it done later..I hope :S

Dear T:
I love having you in my class cause it let us get closer. You're a big laugh but I know that you go a lot deeper than that. You're such a great guy and I love going to you with my rants cause you're honest and you're very realistic. I love how you're willing to talk to people who are annoying/being mean to me cause you care that much (I think? O_o) . You're really sweet and self sacrificial, despite the fact that oyu are my older brother, I would date you just so I could hold your hand and lean on you ;L I love your bubbly personality. YOu're so cute and happy and innocent :) I love how cute you are and how easy it is to talk to you. YOu're a really funny guy and I'm glad I met you :) I love your amusing love for calculators and your knowledge of Zelda :) And then there's you, I love so much about you. You are an awesome brother who's really sweet and selfless. You put other people's happiness before your own and you deserve nothing but the best. Honestly, I never thought we'd get this close but I'm glad we did :) You're probably the most patient person I know, continuously putting up with my complaints and giving me the best advice EVER and I know I can count on you to make me feel a whole lot better when things are bothering me. You're a very talented musician:) oh and I know that lately i've been mean/distant but I hope you know that I still love you :) I love how you get..protective about -ahem- certain things :L Thanks for always being there Kuya :)

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Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Today was alright but I swear, is our class REALLY that bad? Every single lesson we had today we had a sub for. Way to make us feel loved 8-)

Sport today was alright. We played soccer. I used to love soccer. More than basketball - yep there was a day and age when I liked a sport more than basketball. but yeah..I started not liking soccer when I koinda not really made the team last year and the teacher in charge (who I will not name for reasons I am not entirely sure of) annoyed me and kinda ended my love for soccer. . . I was on the no-braid team (yeah im not calling it the white tema cause thats discriminatory...somehow O_o) and we versed the Blue team. I was the only girl on the freaking field because SOMEONE (LISA) dogged me >.>
I tried taking the ball of Thai and kicked his shin instead :P oops...sorry Kuya. But seriously, you have shins of steel . And Andy, it was nice talking to you today. Good bonding time yo... bahaha I'm so lame :P BUt seriously it was nice :) YOu too Alan...although most of our conversation was spent teasing =="


Dear S:
I love how randomly funny you are..yeah your jokes can be a little disturbing but you're cool and I love how you respect people's privacy :) I love your hyperactivity and your selflesness, it's cool...keep me updated on all the cool happenings yeah? :L

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Tuesday, November 3, 2009

I have successfully completed my teapot ! Sucks to be you kids who haven't finished it yet :P LOL Nah I seriously feel sorry for you guys. But I'm sure all of your teapots will pwn mine big time :L
You know what I hate? Really annoying assuming people who think that they know me and my intentions and judge me based on it. COntinuous accusations with no solid evidence that other people stronlgy disagree with usually means that you have no right to accuse me of the things you are accusing me of. SO before you start telling me off for whatever the hell you plan to, think about what's actually going on before you point the finger ok?

Dear R:
I love your readiness to make friends and how loud funny and good at basketball you are. You're a really funny guy and with your obsession with my glasses and mine with someone else's hat..we could work something out, you know what Im saying ? :L (Yeah that's just lame...) I love your small happy nature. YOu're a really happy nice llikeable person and we've been friends for 3 years but only superclose since the beginning of this year. YOu are so much fun to be around and I know I can trust you cause you're that awesome:) I love oyur infatuation with white boys ;) (in joke)

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Monday, November 2, 2009

I just woke up fromthe kind of naps that leave you feeling more tired than you were before you slept. I hate that cause I don't think I'll be bale to sleep properly later anyway and it willl screw up my body clock altogether. But enough about that..I have discovered some things:

  1. The nap also made me extremely irritable so if im on msn later and I sound a little snappy, don't take it personal (unless you're a certain soemone who has been irritating me know who you are :@)
  2. Did this layout's picture die too? :O I thought the picture just wouldn't load cause I was that capped. But now that I'm not capped and I STILL can't see it, maybe it's been removed like my last layout !! I dno..can you people see it? I really can't be bothered re editing all the html again =="
  3. I can eat four pizzas in ten minutes...aren't I -ahem- impressive..yeah there's some boring and unneccessary information for you 8-)
  4. I have run out of points....

Dear Q:

ahahahaha I don't even know why I'm bothering to write this one but meh...I love how funny and out there you are. I haven't seen you in like 2-3 years but I still remember you. You made people who matter to me really happy and I hope I can see you again soon :)

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7:10 PM ; smile'

Have you ever heard of the band Fleet Foxes?
Not until this very moment....

What'd you do last night?
Watch NCIS season two :D

Name something you want right now.
I want... a certain someone to shut up and leave me alone >.>

Do you have a Blogspot account?
Yessum .

Have you ever had Thai food; if so, what was your favorite?

Are you a root beer drinker?
eeew I hate root beer, it tastes funny

Grape juice or red wine?

What was the last film you saw?
Half of the Waitress but my DVD stuffed up halfway through ==" Last ENTIRE movie I watched was MJ movie (H)

Where was the last place you went?
School (A)

What's in your desk drawer?
I have no desk drawer to look in

Who was the last person you wished good luck to?
ahahaha Pernickety :P

Do you listen to any music in a different language?
Yahuh 2NE1 ^^

Are there any important dates coming up?
umumumum Wendy's birthday apparently and Chung's ?

What's your facial wash routine?
My faial routine is nonexistent deary

What do you want to name your kids?
Mae lee cause it sounds prettifully asian :)

Do you watch the World Cup; if so, which country do you root for?

Who was the last person you had deep feelings for?
If I told you that I would have to kill you :)

Which do you prefer: English or History?
English for sure!!

What's something you would like to drink right now?
Green Cordial...
Are you comfortable speaking in front of a large audience?
ummm..generally I am but there are moments whenI freak out completely.
What grade is the last person you texted in?
Year 9

What do you want to get accomplished today/tonight?
Watch more NCIS/FInish watching the Waitress T_T
Will you have a boyfriend/ girlfriend in 6 months?
Doubt it

Look in your inbox in your phone, who are all the people you have texts from?
ALdrich, Kabir, Danica P, Leonard, Lisa, Thai, Lawrence, Melanie, Olivia, Vincent, Avi, Gau, Kat, Nathan, Carissa, My sister, Thai, Israaq, Monica and Genevieve.

Who are you gonna be with Saturday night?
um I had plans but I forgot them :S

Did you have a boyfriend on your last birthday?

Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?
I don't try mwahahaha No seriously I don't htink anyone can say nop to this question

Was the first person you talked to today male or female?

Where did you get your last bruise from?
Running into a wall..yes I am THAT unco

Have you ever been so embarrassed that you cried?
lol not that I remember but I probably have

What's the last thing you said to someone & to who?
"Press that thing!" LOL

Have you ever let someone go because you thought they deserved better?
I'm too selfish for that ;) lol nah I haven't been put into that situation

If your ex said they hate you, you say?
I have no ex..sheesh why do all these quiz thingys ask about exes? O_o

Do you know anyone who would just drop everything to come see you?
No :(
What woke you up this morning?
My alarm

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
I think so..I forgive pretty easily I think..usually. But I can hold a grudge if I want >=]

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Don't think not worth your time >< style="font-weight: bold;">Do you give out second chances too easily?
Probably .

Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
uhh Yeah... I dislike smoking. Not cool man, not cool >=[

What'd you cry about the last time you cried?
ROFL I was reading Mel's birthday card to me and it was really sweet :L

Do you believe what goes around comes around?
I don't know. I don't really think about it.

How much older is the person you're currently interested in?
Not very 8-)

Have your parents caught you drinking?
zenzen nomimasen

How has the past week been for you?
hrmm...average then awesome then good then crap then average again...What a mad roller coaster :P

When was the last time you were complimented?
Umm... Today ?

Is there a high chance of you going out to the movies soon?
I hope so and I wanna see the Time Traveller's Wife and The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus ans last time I checked, someone owes me >.>

Are you listening to music right now?
Don't Turn Away - Elliott Yamin

What is something you wish you had more of?

What would your new last name be if you married the last person who texted?
Kyleen Tan :L

If you could pack up and leave your life now to move away, would you?
No way!

What was the last drink you consumed?
Green Cordial :9

Are you waiting for anything/anyone?
Nope..should I be?

What color is your underwear?
White :)

Do you have a member of the opposite sex you've told everything to?
YES!! You know who you are boy >.>

Do you honestly have any regrets?
um don't we all ?

Have you met anybody that changed your life?
Yup :)

Missing anybody?
yeah =/

Who do you have texts from in your phone?
A lot...hasn't this question been asked ?

Are you in any kind of emotional pain right now?
No I am content :D

Do you believe in marriage? Do you plan on getting married someday?
Of course I do! and hell yeah...July 25th 2010 :P

Which is harder: walking away from somebody you love or coming back to somebody who has hurt you?
Walking away....

Has your heart ever truly ached for somebody?
Truly ached? Isn't that a bit...much ?

Why did you last cry?
Cause I was reading mel's card...haven't I already said this ?

Is it easier to pretend everything's okay for you?
Extremely. Unless it's something big then it's usally either Kabir or Chung who notices...

Ever cried while you were on the phone with someone?
Nope..very close to tears though :P

What was the last horror movie you watched? With who?
The story of the two sisters ( I think that's what it's called) with Raelene and my sister :) Fun times !

Do you take walks often?
bahahaha no

Do you think "I love you" are strong words?
Nt anymore...people use it too much and it losees meaning (I'm looking at you Greg >.>) but if it's said meaningfully..hell freaking yeah

Is anything bugging you right now?
YES..stupid people pissing me off, making me irritated -incoherent mumbling-

Do you think you could live without your cell phone?
Yeah...I don't use my phone much generally

Would you date someone that none of your friends like?
Probably but I would keep my friends' opinions in mind.

If you woke up as the opposite gender, what’s the 1st thing you would do?
Show all the boys how it's done (H)

Do you want a well-paying job or a job you enjoy? that's enjoyable probably

Do you like hugs?
Very much so :)

Where do you want to go to uni?

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5:32 PM ; smile'

Sunday, November 1, 2009

"What is your ideal woman?
I could describe her til the cows
came home but the question is,
am I her ideal man?"

-Lie to Me

There was a time when you used to put me before anything else. A time when you would find any excuse just to talk to me. When you wouldn't mind listening to my endless complaints and you were glad to listen. But ever since that..moment, things have changed and I don't know where I am on your priority list. Quite Frankly, I don't even know if I have a place on there or if you even care about me anymore. Maybe I should just accept that things are different and move on. It's gonna be hard. Hell, it's gonna be torture but I've stopped caring about my own happiness and started hoping that maybe you could be happy. Without feeling guilty. So you know what? Forget about me and everything I meant to you and we'll see where that takes you, just do me a favour and smile with her as much as you smiled with me. Don't let yourself get hurt or regret it as much as I do. And maybe, just maybe, I can stop loving us and how perfect our relationship was. But im sorry, I don't think I'll ever stop missing what used to be...


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